goodbye

love is only a word after all

it does not bind or heal

does not change or complete a person

it brings only confusion 

and sadness

miscommunication 

and loss

love is an abstract collection

of impossible wishes

and little pipe dreams

and so i bid farewell to love

for love does not love me

perhaps sadness, 

which at least

can be expressed 

through tears

or anger 

which can be expressed 

through noise

will suit me better

and so I honor 

TAPS with taps

and lay to rest this 

mad and weary world i carry

and fall at the feel of joy

unable to rise to its level

misery and bitterness caress me

and i caress them 

 we keep to ourselves

and glare at all who pass us

we have nothing to say but goodbye

for it is all we have ever heard

 

I helped a heart!

dreams

dreams...

like spheres of memory 

they swirl in nonlinear orbits

and as they collide

bells ring in symphonies

I pirouette

through fields of clover  

and stars, 

golden apples and golden bees

are my sunlight

but all dreams must end...

as darkness descends into light

and my alternate dream

begins 

But oh... how lonely 

This other dream can be...

strange

I feel.. just a little bit strange

but happy, as though my heart

and my glasses have been doused in rose

and I can't see wrong in the world

but as I float higher my life is lower

I have an anchor, but I wonder sometimes if it's there

and i'm wandering around in the clouds

like i just don't care

I need someone to bring me back to earth

to keep me from floating away

help me from becoming a family repeat

can you keep me here I wonder 

or will I drift away like a leaf in the wind

forgotten, dried up and old

you seem to save me, 

but my resolve seems to fold

when I look into your eyes

how can I ask for you

when I don't know if you're even there

but i like this uncertainty it's better than

previous reality

so I think i'll float away now

back up... up... up... come and 

catch me,

if you can

this peom is loopy and so am I right now... I should be watching what I say, but I'm not, so I guess i'm just doing as xkcd has bid me to do (lol)

ahh... the crispness of winter is finally here, snow, snow and more snow! I don't particularly like the cold (unless it's the ocean) but I do love the snow! so many kodiac moments are possible! One of my passions is photography, the photo above is a view of the rocky mountains with lots of snow I snapped a few weeks ago, hope you enjoy!